Glancing into the coming days...

Well, after today, its work work work, all weekend long for me. I'm not looking forward to it. However, i should have some more time off next week... maybe even a friday or saturday night again. That would be nice since i've been craving some fried chicken from the Log Inn. If not, i might just have to wait another week.

Also, Fall Fun Night at Olivet is next Wednesday night. Justine and I are dressing up, but neither of us know what were gonna be yet. Aside, from that i have no idea what i will be doing for Halloween, but then again, that kinda depends on my work schedule.

In November, Leeland and Brandon Heath are coming to Evansville. I am definitley looking forward to that. Brandon Heath is just a phenomenal CCM artists. Then, the end of the month is Thanksgiving, the second greatest national holiday. Yummm, turkey! Justine will be out of town but i can manage. Ive convinced myself that it will be okay for her to be gone for a few days, even though its during a holiday weekend!

Not to long after Thanksgiving is the greatest holiday of them all, Christmas! It's byfar my favorite holiday, even though im not a fan of the cold weather. If you can't tell i'm excited for this coming fall and winter and i hope you are too! I'd like to wish everyone a happy fall and a blessed holiday season!!!

Life Changers

It's been a couple weeks since i wrote a new post so i thought i'd keep you updated with yet another aspect of my life. Today, i want to talk about life changers. These are the people that have made a huge impact on my life over the last few years.

1. My Parents - You have raised me to be the great person that i am today. I know it was hard, but you have succeeded. I'm glad you have made me into who i am.
2. My Family - You have supported me through every step of life... everything from videotaping those elementary school plays to being there when i graduated high school. You all are awesome.
3. Jesus Christ - You died so that i might have life. I owe everything to you. Everyday, my prayer is that people might not just see me, but rather see You living in me.
4. Trey McClain - You have changed the way that i've wanted to live my life. You are such a great person and i look up to you. You have created an awesome church and i'm proud to be a part of that!
5. Mrs. Amber Hale - You were the best teacher/mentor/leader that i've ever had. You taught me to be more open-minded and in doing so, have given me a greater outlook on life. You helped me realize that in life, its not how high up the mountain you climb, it's how happy you are when you've reached your stopping point. Your awesome... just so you know.
6. Audio Adrenaline - You have written the rock songs of a lifetime for thousands of generations of Christians. You guys all rock and most definitely have changed my life through your music!
7. Justine Zarazee - I now understand why you waited and i'm sorry about that last blog post, but i'm so glad that you finally said yes to us. You've made a huge impact on my life and are making me a better person. Your family is so great, even though you find them embarassing sometimes. Spending time with you though is my most favorite thing to do these days. You love me for who i am and you know thats all i'd ever ask for in our relationship. I'm so happy that were together. Your amazing, and I love you!
8. Brandon Marvel - Your my best friend and have been for awhile now. I'm so glad you moved here years ago because your a great guy who will do big things in life.

The Summer Meltdown (June Edition)

Well, it's almost the end of June already. It's way to incredibly hot here in Evansville already. It's getting to be that time of the year when my little fan in my bedroom will not keep me comfortable anymore and therefore, i can't sleep. If you find me on Facebook late at night or writing late night blogs, that is probably why. Our house is cooled by one 32,000 BTU window air conditioner which is just enough to cool down the living room and hallway connecting the bedrooms. Summer is flying by so quickly... but i'm not gonna lie. I'm having a blast!

Over the course of the last month, i've:

• Made some close friends
• Been working a whole lot at Gordman's...... like 30 hours a week. =[
• Became a wedding DJ (which is something i thought i'd never do)
• Volunteered double digits of hours for VBS at Olivet (more than ever before)
• Been swimming with friends a lot (because my friends are awesome)

Within the next month, i plan to:

• SPIRIT SONG FEST @ KINGS ISLAND!!!!! (my relaxing summer vacation)
• Hang out with my new best friend AMAP! (i totally just made that up... it means "As much as possible!" haha)
• Possibly go on a mission trip to Knoxville w/ Discovery
• Swim some more with friends...

After July, it will be August... and you better know what that means. ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!! (Aug. 2) so i expect lots of monetary gifts from you all, or at least a Cherry Limeade from Sonic!

Getting Closure...

I have an issue... but then again, who doesn't have their own issues??? Here is my problem. I can never seem to find closure on anything that bothers me. It doesn't matter what it is.

It can be something as simple as: "Why do some churches try to push people out of their congregations?". I was born and raised Presbyterian. Growing up through the years, going to this church for most of my life, i had seen it happen many times before but i never realized it until a few weeks ago. The church that i had looked up to for guidance and wisdom through 19 years of my life was doing something that no church should every even begin think about doing... You see, this church has its own little way of leaving people behind and/or pushing people out. Thinking back, i can count into the double digits of families that have either left, or have been provoked in some way in which they feel no longer welcome. I am getting to that point in my walk with this church family. They no longer are seeming like family to me. Instead, its almost becoming a burden just to walk in because the older people who have been there with me all along are mostly the only ones who seem to care. Its sad really that it has to come to this, but i might just send a letter announcing my withdraw of membership. I'd feel better about myself and i think that it would better reflect my faith!

There are also more mind boggling scenerios in which i cannot get any closure, like: "Why did she just say that... and what does that mean?" No offense girls, but i think you are a huge reason why guys have trouble sleeping at night. Why... might you ask??? THERE WAS NEVER ANY CLOSURE ON THE ISSUE! It doesn't matter what issue arrose. You made some statement and expect us to conform our brains to not only comprehend what you said, but to answer difinitively in your language, as if we know exactly what you mean. Guess what. We don't. Your not perfect though. It's in the Bible (Romans 3:22-24). So, read it an weap!

As you can tell, my mind's eye has a wide view on grasping the meaning of life. Not getting closure is a huge problem for me. I think that is why i am so curious all of the time. I always have questions and not always do i find answers. That is where i struggle. So, do me a favor. The next time i have a question, don't leave me hanging with an open-ended answer. Help me get some closure on the issue...