The Summer Meltdown (June Edition)

Well, it's almost the end of June already. It's way to incredibly hot here in Evansville already. It's getting to be that time of the year when my little fan in my bedroom will not keep me comfortable anymore and therefore, i can't sleep. If you find me on Facebook late at night or writing late night blogs, that is probably why. Our house is cooled by one 32,000 BTU window air conditioner which is just enough to cool down the living room and hallway connecting the bedrooms. Summer is flying by so quickly... but i'm not gonna lie. I'm having a blast!

Over the course of the last month, i've:

• Made some close friends
• Been working a whole lot at Gordman's...... like 30 hours a week. =[
• Became a wedding DJ (which is something i thought i'd never do)
• Volunteered double digits of hours for VBS at Olivet (more than ever before)
• Been swimming with friends a lot (because my friends are awesome)

Within the next month, i plan to:

• SPIRIT SONG FEST @ KINGS ISLAND!!!!! (my relaxing summer vacation)
• Hang out with my new best friend AMAP! (i totally just made that up... it means "As much as possible!" haha)
• Possibly go on a mission trip to Knoxville w/ Discovery
• Swim some more with friends...

After July, it will be August... and you better know what that means. ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!! (Aug. 2) so i expect lots of monetary gifts from you all, or at least a Cherry Limeade from Sonic!

Getting Closure...

I have an issue... but then again, who doesn't have their own issues??? Here is my problem. I can never seem to find closure on anything that bothers me. It doesn't matter what it is.

It can be something as simple as: "Why do some churches try to push people out of their congregations?". I was born and raised Presbyterian. Growing up through the years, going to this church for most of my life, i had seen it happen many times before but i never realized it until a few weeks ago. The church that i had looked up to for guidance and wisdom through 19 years of my life was doing something that no church should every even begin think about doing... You see, this church has its own little way of leaving people behind and/or pushing people out. Thinking back, i can count into the double digits of families that have either left, or have been provoked in some way in which they feel no longer welcome. I am getting to that point in my walk with this church family. They no longer are seeming like family to me. Instead, its almost becoming a burden just to walk in because the older people who have been there with me all along are mostly the only ones who seem to care. Its sad really that it has to come to this, but i might just send a letter announcing my withdraw of membership. I'd feel better about myself and i think that it would better reflect my faith!

There are also more mind boggling scenerios in which i cannot get any closure, like: "Why did she just say that... and what does that mean?" No offense girls, but i think you are a huge reason why guys have trouble sleeping at night. Why... might you ask??? THERE WAS NEVER ANY CLOSURE ON THE ISSUE! It doesn't matter what issue arrose. You made some statement and expect us to conform our brains to not only comprehend what you said, but to answer difinitively in your language, as if we know exactly what you mean. Guess what. We don't. Your not perfect though. It's in the Bible (Romans 3:22-24). So, read it an weap!

As you can tell, my mind's eye has a wide view on grasping the meaning of life. Not getting closure is a huge problem for me. I think that is why i am so curious all of the time. I always have questions and not always do i find answers. That is where i struggle. So, do me a favor. The next time i have a question, don't leave me hanging with an open-ended answer. Help me get some closure on the issue...